Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. (Philippians 4:6-8 NIV)
Still battling the diarrhea and spitting up. No idea what the cause is. On the plus side, Nora is in decent spirits. We’ve been able to get a few smiles out of her today. She does seem uncomfortable at times, but definitely not in any pain. We will probably have her seen by a GI if she doesn’t show some improvement through the night. It’s so so hard to keep my thoughts under control. How many more times does God need to teach me the futility of worrying?? You’d think I’d get it by now.
I finished reading a book today called To Heaven and Back about a woman’s near death experience. I love reading books on this topic not because I’m looking for proof of heaven, but because these glimpses of heaven are so beautiful and encouraging to me. The last few sentences at the end hit spot on for me this afternoon:
“I think it is only when a person truly sees God working in his own life that this faith can be transformed into a complete trust that God’s promises are true. Complete trust that God has a beautiful plan and that it is one with a hope and a future allows me, and each of us, to face challenges with confidence and courage, even when the plan and its beauty seem hidden.
-Mary C. Neal, MD
I so needed that reminder!!!! God is so completely obviously at work in our lives. That can’t even be questioned, but do I really GET IT??? I want to face these challenges with confidence and courage, but I feel so afraid especially in these moments when everything seems hidden.
I took a break from writing this post after I’d typed the excerpt from To Heaven and Back. I was tucking the big kids into their beds and kissing them goodnight. During my visit in Greta’s room she asked me why I looked sad although I don’t know that I actually did. She’s just very intuitive. I explained to her that I was worried about Nora and how silly it was for me to worry when God has gotten us through so many rough times. What makes me think He won’t get us through this one? Greta looked at me and said, “God never breaks his promises,” either incredibly wise beyond her years or prompted by her angel. Then she asked me to read her today’s and yesterday’s pages from her Jesus Calling devotional. Yesterday’s was entitled “My Promises”
THREE TIMES tonight I was reminded of God’s promises. Though they appear hidden right now, they are no less true.
…Maybe it’s just the transition from milk only to food and milk…it is a change for her. LOVE her! Sweet Dreams to you all.
We stopped trying to feed her the rice cereal because she was gagging on it.:(
Love this entry. I often have to remind myself of who God really is. Nora is never far from my prayers!
I love reading those type of books also. They just give me additional hope about what happens beyond the physical &/or emotional pain of death. They help answer all those unknowns which add to my fear of death. They are so beautiful and make me feel closer to God. Praying for Nora’s bowel healing, and for God’s peace for all of you.
As my situation is different from your own, I still feel as though I needed this reminder. I am a student entering my last semester in nursing school and there is still a lot unknown about the experience in my last semester. I saw the bible verse you wrote and immediately felt a relief that I needed. God is bigger than we will ever comprehend or imagine and I have to live in that understanding. Thanks for your words and continuing to share your story and journey of you and your family.
I WAS GOING TO GO TO THE LAST BLOG, BUT I AM SO GLAD I DECIDED TO GO BACK ONE DAY. I NEEDED TO FIND OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON WITH OUR BEAUTIFUL LITTLE NORA. WHEN I READ YOUR BLOG, I TOO NEEDED SOME REASSURING. THANKS ALEISA YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER. I WILL GO TO THE NEXT BLOG AND WRITE WHERE I HAVE BEEN AND WHAT HAS HAPPENED. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. LOVE AND PRAYERS ARE ALWAYS COMING YOUR WAY. GOD BLESS.