The discouragement and hopelessness that I experienced during Nora’s recent hospitalization is still fresh in my mind, but not as active emotions. In my sleep deprived, intensely fragile condition I found myself engaged in a full fledged meltdown. My flood of tears camouflaged with the hot water from the shower nozzle while I silently screamed at God. In my state of misery my eyes were drawn to an emergency pull cord.
“Yes! I sure could use some help, God,” I thought to myself. I began wishing for emergency pull cords dangling down from heaven that were strategically placed in perilous spots. When we felt ourselves falling, or even if we’d already crashed to the floor we could just instinctively grab onto one and God would come running. After a few minutes it dawned on me. Isn’t that what faith is? But of course! How much easier it would be if faith were something tangible like an emergency pull cord. And how much easier it would be to have faith if we could actually SEE God with our human eyes, if we could physically be hugged in his arms. These were my thoughts as I managed to pull myself together enough to turn the shower off and finish getting ready.
The waterworks started right back up again a few minutes later as I was laying down on the fold-out guest bed. My dear sweet husband, knowing I was upset tenderly laid down beside me and kissed my cheeks and forehead. “Those kisses are from God,” he whispered to me. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
There’s no way he could have possibly heard the theme of my meltdown just minutes before, yet there he was showing me VERY TANGIBLE EVIDENCE of God.
God has BOLDLY revealed Himself so many times throughout this journey and continues to do so every day. He speaks to me through my husband, my family, my friends and even complete strangers through messages on this blog. Complete strangers who have recognized us and took the time to let us know they’re following along on our blog and praying for us. I had another one of those moments this morning at my doctor visit. (Thank you, Jenny!!!) Through these instances, God reminds me just how far Nora’s story has reached, how many people she’s touched and how truly MEANT TO BE she really is.
It was a beautiful Wednesday. Thank you, God for today and for this precious gift you’ve entrusted me with! 🙂