The Night Before Your Birthday 

  
I remember laying here in this same spot four years ago protected in an otherworldly sanctuary of peace. It was almost ridiculous that I wasn’t curled up on the floor in a puddle of anxiety laced tears. My hand hovered over you on the other side of my skin, savoring each and every one of your little pokes and kicks. I was keenly aware that those sweet flutters could very well be some of the last experiences we had together on this earth, but I was blissfully unable to be bothered or upset by that. Oh, the legions of warrior angels that must have been standing guard around us, protecting our gift of serenity with all their might. A grand adventure was about to unfold! There was no time to be wasted or stolen with lies.

There are the days when the pain of being without you is excruciating. I want and crave nothing more than to sniff you and kiss you, stroke your sweet cheeks and nibble on your knee muffins and your little elf ear. You were (and still are) such a huge gift. Tomorrow is the anniversary of a HAPPY day. Even though you won’t be here with us in the sweet “stinky” flesh to celebrate with us, I don’t want the beauty of your LIFE to be tarnished with the sadness of your death. (***ADD moment: Is it weird that a song called “Life and Death” is playing on Pandora right now?!???!***) So warrior angels? If you follow this blog and you’re reading this right now, will you please keep a watchful eye over us as you did so efficiently those four years ago? 

You brought unfathomable love and joy into our lives, Nora. I am eternally grateful for our statisic-defying 777 days together and the absolute privilege of having you as my daughter. Although we are apart for now, you are still very close in my heart and ever on my mind. Tomorrow we will celebrate you with cake, ice cream, sparkles and balloons and of course your favorite song “Happy Birthday”. We certainly won’t sound as beautiful as the angels, but we’ll do our very best!

Happy, beautiful birthday, sweet Lady Baby!

“In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.”‭‭(1 Peter‬ ‭1:6-7‬ ‭NIV‬‬)

12 thoughts on “The Night Before Your Birthday 

  1. Happy 4th Birthday, Precious Elenora Rose. You are one of the most loved Baby Girls that I know. I, too, miss you like crazy! I will celebrate you today here in MN. I send my biggest loves to your Mama and Daddy and Brudder and Sister. Dance Big and Part on in Heaven! ❤ Auntie Jo

  2. Happy birthday to “Angel Nora”! You earned your wings and have the joy to be with our God!
    What a great family you have on earth.

  3. Happy birthday “Angel Nora” – you earned your wings and the joy to be with God! What a wonderful family you have on earth!

    • Nora, your life moved me closer to our creator in so many ways. Your mother taught me so much as a mother and daughter of God. I miss watching you learn, squeal, and grow however, I know that through your life and experiences here so many lives have,and continue to be touched by love and grace. May you be overwhelmed with the heavenly and earthly love for you sweet girl.

  4. Ecclesiates 3:10-11 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet
    no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end

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