Twenty years ago today I was frantically pacing my bedroom with my best friend after I had just taken a positive pregnancy test. Nineteen. Still living at home. Unmarried, unstable relationship. Plans to go to college. What will people think? My parents are going to kill me. What am I going to do? Those were just a few things running through my mind. My misguided attempts to seek acceptance had gotten me into a terrifying predicament that really there was no way out of. There may have been a way of escaping the “what will people think?” aspect, but that was NOT something I could live with. Besides, was it really THAT important what people thought of me?? Twenty years ago I had no idea who that little embryo was going to be, but I made the first of my many steps into blind faith. I may not have consciously voiced it, but I was placing my trust in God, allowing Him to turn my perceived turmoil into something beautiful. And did he EVER. That little pink line on the pregnancy test turned out to be my beautiful birth daughter who is completely, totally and utterly meant to be here! I vividly remember my fear and anxiety over the situation, but how inconsequential it seems when the story has so beautifully unfolded over the years.
So here I am twenty years later, wondering how time flew by so fast. On this very day twenty years later I look in awe at yet another precious babe who is celebrating her 7 months of life today. Once again I have placed my trust in God. I can’t help but wonder what this will all look like in another twenty years.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
(Ephesians 3:20-21 NIV)
Immeasurably more, indeed!!!!!!