Nora – ELEVEN WEEKS OLD

It was an extraordinarily hard day today for no other reason than I allowed myself to get caught up in my limited perspective which is saturated with fear and worry. I went to bed feeling balanced and grounded. I enjoyed a restful night’s sleep (thank you, Kate C.) yet awoke feeling like I had stepped off the edge into a rapid free fall.

This is where I really need to stay on guard and recognize evil forces for what they are – a determined attempt to shatter me. While talking on the phone this morning with my dear friend Tonya I was reminded of so much I felt like I already knew, but clearly needed reminding! It turns out that it’s the times such as these that scripture REALLY comes in handy. How truly important it is to stay familiar with it – to read it, study it, meditate on it, memorize it, and PRACTICE it!! When you can throw a memorized verse from scripture out in your defense, that gives you great power over evil.

I also spoke with James Mummert this afternoon. There he was in all of his mere 24 years offering a much-older-(not necessarily wiser)-me such wisdom and spiritual insight; despite having just suffered their own grievous loss. He suggested that Satan is especially out to get us. As authors of blogs that have drawn in thousands of people we need to be particularly on guard. There are evil entities that can’t stand the fact that we are inspiring and blessing others by sharing our stories. Satan would love nothing more than for us to succumb to our circumstances instead of allowing God to use them for his glory. We have to recognize it for what it is and arm ourselves against it. We need to remember that good ALWAYS triumphs over evil and to stay strong in Christ!

In a state of desperation this morning I “threw myself down on Facebook’s floor” in front of the 2000+ members of the Praying for Nora group. Knowing the power of prayer, I cast aside any pride or desire for privacy. Yes, I was falling apart. But what better way to rally the troops than through social networking? Prayer was my only hope here. By early evening I felt the aching of fear and worry start to melt away. Thank you for lifting me up in your prayers and literally saving me from the clutches of hell. I definitely felt your prayers!

This sweet little girl has no idea about anything. The only thing she knows about is love (and milkies).

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(and kitties)


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(and more kitties)


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(and sisters)


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(and sleeps) Night night!

Satan will not outsmart us. For we are familiar with his evil schemes. (2 Corinthians 2:11 NLT)

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. (Romans 12:21 NIV)

Nora – 76 Days Old

Today is my hubzbind’s birthday. Our joke in the family is that he gets to be boss again because we’re both the same age now. My birthday comes almost a whole month before his – so during that time I get to be the “boss” of the family because I’m older. (I think the kids actually started that). I spent 25 days on this earth as a tiny infant before Baby William (Billy) made his grand appearance. I like to speculate that our pre-birth little souls were best friends in heaven and conspired to meet again someday – thus the term “a match made in heaven”. Over the course of our lives we may have had some close encounters at Kings Island (local amusement park that we both frequented) during our teen years. You would think we would have HAD to have at least seen each other in passing on one of those hot carefree summer days. Who knew then that we were to someday be husband and wife — parents of 3 beautiful children together.

I’m so blessed to be your wife, William. You are an amazing husband and Daddy. Things aren’t so easy right now, but I have hope that there are brighter days ahead for us. Thank you for your strength and your comfort, your tender hugs and kisses that are always there exactly when I need them, your selflessness, your guidance, your optimism, your hard work, your generosity, your fairness, your honesty and your comic relief. It’s nice to be able to still laugh despite what we are going through. I can always count on you to cheer me up when I am sad, or to be the sound voice of reason when I am emotional. Funny that even though it’s YOUR birthday, I’m the one who feels like I’ve gotten the gift of you as my hubzbind. Happy Birthday, my sweet.

I found the one my heart loves.
(Song of Solomon 3:4 NIV)

Love, Your Wife

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We have some extremely tough decisions ahead of us as it pertains to Nora’s medical care. I’m humanly worried and terrified of making a wrong decision. I woke up this morning with the sharp blade of fear and uncertainty stabbing me between the lungs. In a desperate struggle to escape from it, I grabbed one of my devotionals. Plainly printed in black ink, I read the words “He will reach to the very limits of the universe to help you take the right road.” {DEEP SIGH!!!!!!!} And in that, I fully trust.

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Thank You, God for speaking so clearly to me. You speak to me through Your written word, through the mouths of others, and through the beauty of Your creation. I find myself in constant conversation with You, eager for Your insight. Your voice, while not audible to me is loud and clear in so many other ways. Thank You!!!

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Praise be to God, Almighty!

This is what the Lord says—
your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:
“I am the Lord your God,
who teaches you what is best for you,
who directs you in the way you should go. (Isaiah 48:17 NIV)

(and of COURSE I just discovered this to be the “Verse of the Day” on my YouVersion Bible app, AFTER I had just written about this because it was EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED. He tells me once, He reminds me again and then He verifies it. Wow. Chills. I hear you, God! 🙂 )

Nora – 75 Days Old (2nd Post)

Pictures from today…

Celebrating Daddy’s birthday at brunch this morning…

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It was so nice to meet you today, Julie! Thank you for saying Hi!

Back at home…

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“I am Life & Light. Soak in My Presence as you would soak in a warm bathtub. Let My Love surround you and seep in your soul – giving you new energy. And let all your worries swirl away,” -Jesus calling for Kids by Sarah Young.

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Papa loves me.

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Nana and Mommy love me!

Nora – 75 Days Old

Why in the world did I think I could
Only get to know You when my life was good?
When everything just falls in place
The easiest thing is to give You praise

Now it all seems upside down
‘Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me

And somehow still have all I need?
God, I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when I fall apart

Blessed are the ones who understand
We got nothing to bring but empty hands, yeah
Nothing to hide and nothing to prove, yeah
Our heartbreak brings us back to You, oh

And it all seems upside down
‘Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me

And somehow still have all I need?
God,I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts I find
You when I fall apart, yeah

I don’t know how long this will last
I’m praying for the pain to pass
But maybe this is the best thing
That has ever happened to me

My whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
And somehow still have all I need?

God,I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when You will find me when

I fall apart
I fall apart

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Nora on the ferry this morning with THE PRAYER TREE in the background (heart shaped tree up on the horizon)