I can no longer regard Nora’s trisomy diagnosis as the great tragedy that I once did. Back in January and for months after, I didn’t understand how something like this could happen to US. I now see very clearly that God knew exactly what He was doing! I’ve been given the opportunity to stand back and see glimpses of the Big Picture, and WOW is it ever gorgeous! This isn’t something that just happened to William and I, it happened to thousands and thousands of people. My faith and spirituality have grown immeasurably these past four months, but it’s not just me. There are almost 2000 comments I can look back on that would suggest Nora has had a profound effect on MANY. What if the difficulties and tragedies we are dealt in this life aren’t meant for just us personally, but are designed and authored to impact, inspire, and cultivate others? To look at it that way certainly changes my self-centered perspective, and diminishes any self-pity I might have had. The “Why would God do this to me?” question suddenly becomes null and void. In a state of vulnerability and desperation I allowed God to use me as His instrument really because I just. didn’t. know. what. else. to. do. It would have been really nice to see how beautifully everything would unfold back then, but I couldn’t have had a clue. I felt I had no other options but to take the blind leap and give it all to God. Blind leaps of faith can be scary as all hell (speaking from experience), but the splash will be huge and the ripples just might carry to the ends of the earth, impacting and inspiring thousands. Can you trust Him? YES. God can list me as a reference on His resume any day!
But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. (1 Peter 4:13 NIV)
Here are pictures of Nora from today. Greta was so proud of herself that she can hold Nora while standing up! She’s such an awesome big sister and such a help to Mommy!
Nora has an appointment with the pulmonologist on Tuesday! Please pray that we get some answers and some solutions! Thank you and God bless!