These next few weeks are all I have left of “status quo”. Past April 17th I have NO plans for absolutely anything except what ever it is that God has in store. For really the first time ever in my life I feel like a big PAUSE button has been pressed. My life sits there frozen on the screen, most likely with a dumbfounded expression on my face. I’m scared to have the PLAY button pressed again because I’ve become used to this state of motionless uncertainty. Strangely, I’ve become comfortable in what once seemed like the endlessness of it all. Suddenly the light at the end of the tunnel has become very visible and it just keeps getting brighter and brighter. Yes, I’m very anxious to see what exists on the other side of this, but I’m also understandably fearful of the unknown.
(My hubzbind took this awesome picture of Greta in the creek tunnel)
As we draw nearer to meeting Nora, I’ve made it a point to really savor these next 23 days. I refuse to let them be ruined by the fallacy of my imagination.
Usually, I like to end my blog entries with an appropriate Bible verse that ties in with the theme of what ever I wrote about. I was at that point of looking for one when I typed in a specific, but seemingly random Bible verse into my phone’s Bible app.
I just sat here staring at these words with tears welling up in my eyes… in absolute awe. Let me explain…
We had a perfect day at the zoo today where we met some new friends. (I love all of the sweet people God has been placing in our lives as a direct result of my sweet Nora–people I might never have met.) Early this morning in prayer and conversation with God, I told Him that I wanted to hear a lion roar at the zoo. If you’ve ever had the experience of hearing a lion roar in person, it is nothing short of incredible! The power of it shakes through your entire body and can be heard up to 5 miles away! You can physically feel the sound of it. It wasn’t that I was testing God or that I doubt Him. I just wanted some tangible, obvious reassurance that He hears me and that He’s here with me. We saw some sleepy lions this afternoon, none of which had anything to roar about. Never at any point was I disappointed or upset about not hearing a lion roar. I KNOW God is with me, I KNOW He hears me. It wasn’t until just now that I read this particular Bible verse that I even remembered my request.
In search of “the perfect Biblical reference” I typed in Proverbs 19:12. It wasn’t what I had been looking for at that moment, but is it ever perfect:
“A king’s rage is like the roar of a lion,
but his favor is like dew on the grass.” (Proverbs 19:12 NIV)
No, I didn’t get to experience the roar of a lion today, but I will most certainly give thanks for the dew on the grass! Wow.