On January 9, 2012 we received the devastating news that our pregnancy (at 25 weeks) was not everything we had imagined and hoped. We were told that from the results of a 99% accurate amniocentesis, our baby has an often fatal chromosomal abnormality called Trisomy 18. Despite the bleak outlook from the doctors, we will be so brave as to ask and wait for a miracle. We declined to find out the gender of the baby, wanting to be surprised at the birth (thinking that’s all we’d have to be surprised about). We still do not know if this baby is a boy or a girl or how long we have with him or her on this earth. We have learned to just take each day one hour at a time and to rein our thoughts in from straying too far into the future. Focusing on the joys of today, and trusting that God will give us the tools to get through each new difficulty is all we can do right now. So far, God has not let us down.
Although we were given the option to induce preterm labor and “just get this over with”, we have realized that there is just NO easy way out of this. We will allow our baby to remain safe, warm and loved inside of me until God decides his or her time with us is up. Our baby is not in any pain and is oblivious to the sea of painful emotions that have been churning in the hearts of so many since we received the news. For what ever reason, God chose US to be the parents of this little person. As sad as I am at the prospect of parting with this tiny baby, I know and trust that God has a plan.
There are only one set of footprints on our beach right now, but already we can look down and see some of the beautiful treasures that have washed up on the shore. For that we give thanks and praise to God.
Update: We found out on February 5th by means of a Gender Reveal Cake* that our baby is a little girl. We’ve named her Nora Rose. She is scheduled to be born on Tuesday, April 17th, 2012.