Nora – 74 Days Old

I feel that gradually I’m getting back in to a better place, once again placing my trust fully in God. I am limited in my human capacity to what I can and can’t do. This relinguish of control I think I have on things is eerily reminiscent of when we received the diagnosis of trisomy 18. It took me about three days to dislodge the knife out of my heart and just TRUST that God had something great in store. AND DIDN’T HE???????

The fear and uncertainty continues to knock me down on occasion, but at least it is coming in waves now instead of being thrust on me like a fire hose. When these waves come, I literally cry out to Jesus. Usually I feel the pain of the uncertainty ebb away within a few minutes. I’m able to take a breath of air and cling onto my faith, ready for the next crash. I noticed my phone was accidentally connected with a number listed as “Telemarketer” during one of these such moments. I suppose they figured out that it was a bad time to call!! (?)

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Morning cuddles (Daddy spied on us)


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We had some special visitors today!


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Nora reenacting her friend Stacy's picture with the same outfit in the same Nap Nanny! ;)


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Daddy and Nora went for a long walk this evening!

Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble,
and he delivered them from their distress.
(Psalm 107:6 NIV)

Nora – 73 Days Old (2nd post)

Your comments on here and on FB have been such an enormous comfort to us today. I’ve read and re-read each one of them. I love how God speaks to us through others. Thank you for your love and encouragement! It’s not been an easy day, but to know there are so many of you out there praying for us makes all the difference in the world.

Please keep my friend Dana in your prayers she delivers her sweet angel baby DaLove today. DaLove was also diagnosed with trisomy 18, yet her Mommy lovingly and hopefully chose to carry her as long as God would allow. Sometimes God’s plans are not our plans – I struggle with that myself. I pray that Dana and her family will be wrapped in peace that surpasses all understanding as they journey through this saddest of times.

Here are pictures of Nora from today.

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And a cute one from the other morning that I found on William’s phone.

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Goodnight!

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (Psalm 34:18 NIV)

Nora – 73 Days Old

I’m writing to ask for prayer and to let you know what is going on. It’s also a feeble attempt to get this crushing weight off my shoulders.

We went for the follow up appointment with the cardiologist yesterday, as I had mentioned. Both William and I were optimistic about the appointment. We were actually excited to be told how well sweet Nora is doing – come back in a few months, or so we thought.

As I understand it – the way that Nora’s little heart is operating is doing harm to her lungs. She will need surgery sooner than later to prevent any irreversible damage to her lungs- if that hasn’t been done already. She may or may not be a candidate for heart surgery. In order to determine if she is, she will need to undergo extensive testing on her other vital organs. If there is anything else not functioning properly, she is not a candidate for heart surgery. Even if she is a candidate, and she does get her VSD and ASDs repaired, it’s no guarantee that her blood flow will reroute the way it’s supposed to go. The lung damage will continue. She will never be eligible for a lung transplant. We are supposed to go back in a couple of weeks for another appointment to see if further testing is even an option.

I feel like I am suspended in the air by a flimsy fraying thread over a sharpened sword. The thread threatens to snap any second. It’s so against everything I know to be true about our amazing God. He’s not just going reach down with a pair of scissors and cut the thread, or give it a quick flick. His hand is right beneath us ready to catch us and hold us closely to Him. I KNOW that, I TRUST that and I BELIEVE that, but His merciful hand slips out of view here and there. All I see is that sword and it scares the hell out of me.

I can’t even begin to express the amount of love that I have for this precious baby that stares back at me in wonderment with her big blue eyes. She coos at me, having no idea there is anything wrong with her. It rips me to shreds to imagine life without her.

Here are pictures I had taken yesterday which I had hoped to use in a typical cute, light hearted post about how fabulous the appointment went. They’re still cute even through my tears.

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I just made tinkle all over my Mom! You'd think she'd learn not to change me on her lap anymore!

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Haha, Mommy!

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From a text I received this morning:

“He who trusts in the Lord, mercy shall surround him.” (Psalm 32:10)

At times, God required a season of waiting before He sends His blessing. Then trust becomes your greatest asset. If we don’t trust God w/our need, we will cry out in fear and panic. At one point during a storm on the Sea of Galilee, the disciples thought they would perish. Jesus commanded the wind and waves to be still. He taught the men how to trust Him even in the most tempestuous of circumstances, and He IS teaching you to watch and wait for His outstretched arms.

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I need to keep reading that over and over and over today. Please, God, have mercy on us!!!!

Nora – 71 Days Old

Sorry I wasn’t able to get this post up last night. My eyelids won the battle!

Here’s Nora:

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Things were relatively quiet for much of the morning! I love to cuddle with my Mom.


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The big kids slept until about 11! They must have been really tired!


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I was excited to get a bath in the big tub.


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Then later on in the afternoon, I was 'Nora Unplugged'. I kept my saturation levels up on my own for a good while!


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How ' bout THAT? Eh???


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Eyyy!! What's going on back there?? I better not get clocked in the head with anything!! Settle down back there!!!

Things can get really crazy around here when the big kids are awake! I can’t wait to join them in their shenanigans!

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In the mean time I'll gladly accept loves and cuddles from my Daddy and Mommy.

I go to visit the cardiologist tomorrow afternoon! Please pray that Mommy and Daddy will be given some more insight on my little heart and lungs, and that I’ll get a good report! Thank you so very, very much! I’ll be sure to keep you posted!

Love,
Nora

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Nora’s appointment is TODAY (June 28th). As she said, we’ll keep you posted!

Heal me, Lord , and I will be healed;
save me and I will be saved,
for you are the one I praise.
(Jeremiah 17:14 NIV)

Nora – TEN WEEKS OLD!!

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Wha? *smack smack smack* mmeh? Oh! Good morning... *yawn*

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Can I have my milkies first? I'm like a zzzommbiiee without my milkies.

Okay… Um, hi? It’s me. Nora. I think I’m ready to start the day now! I wasn’t particularly happy this morning. I may or may not have swallowed a LOT of air while I was devouring my milkies. That pretty much may or may not hurt my belly and may or may not make me very, very angry. Mommy had the good sense to take me on a little walk this morning.

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How's this for a beautiful day? It was 71º at this point. Perfect!

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We only walked about a mile today.

Daddy left for Texas Saturday morning. Mommy got a text that he was on his way home with Gavin and Greta. They were at a layover in Atlanta, I think?

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Travelling looks like lots of fun!

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Mommy and I had to stay close to home so we could leave to pick them up at the airport when they got in.

Around 1:00 we got the call and headed out. I needed loves and kisses while we waited in the cell phone lot. Mommy had that dang Baby Einstein wailing again. I don’t particularly care for her taste in music.

So now the rest of the family is home and things are back to being loud again! As my shirt says today – I AM “Daddy’s Sweetie”, but I sure the heck missed the heck out of my sister!!!!!!

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Now I can rest easy. In my turtle wrap from Aunt Sarah. {Oh, and… HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNT SARAH!!!!}

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Thank you, Nora! Yes, she was a tad bit gassy this morning and wanted nothin to do with nothin!!!! I hurried up and got dressed so we could get outside into the perfect weather that was going on out there. Nora did much better once she was in her stroller. As we were walking along, dodging sprinklers, I noticed a big bumble bee that came to hover over Nora for a few seconds as if though he were checking her out. I recalled how it was once surmised that bumble bees ought not be capable of flight based on supposed laws of aerodynamics. Their wings “should” be larger. Their bodies “should” be smaller. This theory of uncertain origins has since been debunked, but fortunately the bumble bee never knew the theory existed in the first place. (There were never any bumble bees on long hikes talking about how they were told they can’t fly, so they’d better not even try.) At one point in time someone(s) determined that babies born with chromosomal “defects” shouldn’t be able to do a lot of things, but they do anyway. Someone(s) concluded that babies like Nora with trisomy 18 are “incompatible with life” thereby implying that they’re not even worthy of being given a CHANCE. Unlike the bumble bee, we all decided to let someone(s) theoretical guesswork become the widely accepted practice. What importance is this life if it’s just going to die anyway… and *snuff*. Thereby ending a whole world of what “could have been”. I suppose it is indeed hard to be compatible with life when you aren’t even given a chance at it. (?)

I watched as the bumble bee took off and disappeared into the cerulean sky. It seemed to be pretty capable of flight to me!

Jesus replied, “What is impossible with man is possible with God.” (Luke 18:27 NIV)

Nora – 69 Days Old

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It was a lazy, laz-E, LAZY day today. We just layed around and drank milkies.

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We did walk up to the mailbox later on in the afternoon and then we sat out on the back deck for a little while this evening.

Nora really seemed to enjoy the view (not the TV show).

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Gavin and Greta are still in Texas. I heard that they went fishing today!

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It looks like Gavin got all hotted, which I guess might happen when it’s a high of 104º?

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I hope they didn’t get too acclimated or they’re going to be in their winter coats for tomorrow’s high of 81º when they return home!

Nora and I really miss the big kids!

Nora – 68 Days Old

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We’re going to sleep. Mommy will have a post about today tomorrow. Check back, please! :)

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Nora and I had a busy, busy day yesterday! I will let her tell you about it:

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Hi, it’s me, Nora!

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Ummm…. Let me think…

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Oh yeah! I had some milkies…

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And then Mommy and I went on a 45 minute drive to Aunt Sarah & Uncle Dan’s all by ourselves! We only had to stop twice.

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I was a little bit angry.

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Once we got there, I was happy. Everyone was happy to see me!

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I love hanging out with my Nana and my Aunts. That’s my Mommy’s Mom and her sisters.

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Aunt Em was still in town from her bridal shower. I wish Aunt Em and Uncle Josh lived closer!

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Here’s my and my fairy godmother, Aunt Sarah.

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I always know when Mommy is on the phone with Aunt Sarah. They’re pretty weird, if you ask me…

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We hung out and had some beers and dinner. Well, I didn’t. I just had the milkies. That other stuff looks DISGUSTING.

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Blech!

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I was very, very good for the whole trip back home. Not a peep out of me.

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When we got home, I waited patiently for my spa appointment (bath in the BIG tub)!

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It was a very relaxing soak, followed up by a wrap. (It wasn’t seaweed wrap though)

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That was enough in one day for me! I got myself very tired out!

That’s all for now!

Love, Nora

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And there you have it! She was a little vague about the two stops we had to make on our way out to Sarah & Dan’s. She didn’t mention that one of those stops was barely a mile from our house!! She wasn’t harmonizing very nicely with the Baby Einstein selection in the CD player, so we had to pull over in Jimmy John’s parking lot. She was angry that she wasn’t being immediately treated to milkies and loves. Her request was quickly granted and we were able to set off on our way again. The next stop was just a couple minutes away from Sarah & Dan’s. She just could NOT wait for some more lovings. Baby Einstein was NO LONGER of any comfort what so ever. “Turrrrn this craaaaaap offf!!!” she yelled.

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We did have a nice visit at Sarah & Dan’s, but realize that their hearts are heavy with the recent loss of Dan’s grandma just the day before. Grandma Ruthie was 96 years old, a beautiful, sweet, jovial woman who I never saw without a smile on her face. Her roommate and dear friend of about 10+ years passed away just the week before. I can just imagine, “Girl!!! You’ve got to see this place!!! Get up here!!!”

Grandma Ruthie was truly a lover of life, family and happiness. Here is a picture of her going “off-roading” (trailer hoooked up to the quadrunner) last year at her 95th birthday party! She will be missed.